Take this Regret
By: AL Jackson
They say cowards run in the face of danger or pain. I supposed that’s what I was, what I’d become, too fearful to love, too fearful to be loved, too afraid to live- so I ran.
All of AL Jackson’s books give me the same feeling. I can feel every word in the pit of my stomach. She portrays light and dark, soft and deep, all in the same sentence. We get to see this story through both Elizabeth and Christian’s POV (alternating chapters), and this made the story whole. It was necessary to feel both their pains. I thought Pulled was as emotional as a book could get, I was wrong.
My soul mourned for what it had lost, for every day I had lived without them, for every moment wasted, for time that could not be reclaimed.
Christian and Elizabeth had their whole lives mapped out in front of them. Both would be starting law school soon, and were madly in love. What happens when something changes in your plan? Do you face it, or do you run? Sometimes true love is not enough; one decision can change the entire course of your life. This is where regret occurs; young, rash decisions can force you to lose everything. In Christian’s case, he chose to not be a father. His loss was Lizzie and Elizabeth, the family he doesn’t have. The only power I had was in today, and I was determined to live every day for Lizzie and Elizabeth. Even if Elizabeth never forgave me, I would live for her.
What will it take for Elizabeth to forgive Christian? Is it even possible? Some scars are just too deep. This story made me cry in so many parts, the words sucked me in from the very first line. I lost myself in every page. It made me question myself as a parent, a person, a wife. Would I be able to forgive, move on, trust, and love again? All friendship and family dynamics were spot-on. AL writes such versatile characters, she doesn’t sugar coat the mistakes, she owns them, and is able to make you forgive in scenarios you didn’t know were possible. Every question I had was answered, the ending had every element needed to achieve a lasting happily ever after. Thank you AL for your stories.
Elizabeth was a gift and Lizzie was my treasure. I would adore my family until the day I died.